A Boastful Servant Heart In Motherhood
Momma’s, there is a stink in my house! It is my boastful servant heart.
We Moms tend to wear many hats. Just reflect on your week and think about all the many ways you have served your family.
Just like you, I love and adore my husband and children.
But to be honest, sometimes I look at all the ways I serve them, and take pride in my own abilities and efforts. I think why doesn’t anyone notice. Where is my “you’re an amazing wife, or thanks Mom, need a hand?”
I mean do you know what I do for you all?
Then I do something very mature. I stack up my husband’s ‘service’ against my mine.
Bitterness begins brewing and the aroma that follows just plain stinks.
I load the laundry with an attitude.
I pick up the dishes with a “here let ME get that for you….again.”
My voice passive aggressively echos, “does anyone not know where the trash can is?”
And you know what? My family doesn’t see that much desire in walking with a servant’s heart.
Because I have been showing them to be a servant means to be grumpy, and burden loaded.
What’s attractive about that?
“By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”
When I begin to focus on the lack of response for my hard work, or take pride in how I’m serving, God is quick to remind me I am no longer a servant of HIS kingdom. I am a ruler for my own, where I am at the center, and all should ‘ooo’ and ‘awe’ at me.
Galatians 5:13 says, “For you have been called to live in freedom, my brothers and sisters. But don’t use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature. Instead, use your freedom to serve one another in love.”
There is not a pretty bow at the end of this post. No ‘here is five steps to out-perfume that stank.’
But it’s something I have become very aware of and am laying at the feet of Jesus. The feet that remind me, he washes the feet of others, and poured out his life to wash away my sins.
I will take on the rest of this week with a joyful servant attitude that I am free to love my family without conditions as I have been loved by Jesus.